Happy Feast

The wonderful month has flew, I began experiencing the new job ,,, will not judge it now still I need more time so I see the whole picture but one apparent aspect should be taken into consideration, it's not going to be easy and the working hours as I heard are "Illusion" .. "sigh".

Anyways, I am so excited about the feast. I wanted to travel to Alex so much but it wasn't possible. My childhood memories about the feasts were mostly in Alex or my grand ma's villa.

Another thing I love about the Eid, that sometimes it's just a cause to call or even sms someone you haven't talked to in a while.
By the way this Eid's most surprising and nice sms I got was from Omar (my ex boss).

I couldn't make much plans as the vacation is two days only.
We will start with Eid prayer. This wonderful, pleasant, rewarding and phenomenal experience. Where all people are gathered with no difference what so ever. Reciting the same words of thanks and gratitude to Allah at the same time.
No walls and no ceiling, only the sky and the sunrise crawling very slowly and spectacularly to add to the spiritual atmosphere, happy and smiling faces of people. Then family short visits and gatherings and after that friends time… :).

Happy feast to you all.

Secret Admirer

When I was a teen I so wanted to find out one day that I have a secret admirer. Yes a typical secret admirer like the ones in movies; writes me letters, sends me flowers, follows me wherever I go without me noticing. I don't know why…
May be because back then I wasn't ready for a real face to face confrontation and there wasn't anyone special that I used to think of.
Heard once a story from a relative, that happened so many years ago before I was even born. She was young and used to find every morning in her balcony Chiclets packs and candy. She didn't know where do they come from. She tried to know till she noticed that there is a guy lives in the opposite building follows her everyday to school, gets on the same public transportation she uses , then leaves and comes back again to follows her all the way to her home at the end of the day without making any moves or any attempt to speak, as if he was just guarding her. He never said a word, he just kept throwing candy in her balcony and guarding her silently and very politely.
I do remember also that when I was in college, a friend of mine used to have a crush on a guy thought one day to bring him a rose and put it in his empty mug in the cupboard. But she changed her mind after that, fearing she might be caught in the kitchenette doing that.
To tell you the truth now I am not sure if I would like to have a secret admirer like I used to think. I believe I will freak out…
That's how we change over the years, now the picture of someone doing that is he is childish, immature, pathetic or may be a psycho.
For me admiration is wider and broader than the context it's always exist in. it's not only for the ones we have feelings for. I do admire nature and I do admire a lot of people …I admire their points of view, manners, culture, attitudes and principles.
Admiration does restrain a great deal of respect.
As for being a secret admirer myself, I have difficulty showing my feelings to special ones. On the contrary when I am friendly, spontaneous and nice to someone that means he is no more than a brother but if he is more than that I am a real disaster.
Unintentionally I tend to hide and avoid him … it scares me, that was mostly what I used to do with (M). Of course he didn't understand but he truly was and will ALWAYS be the one that I admired and respected the most.
When I first started this blog, I used to write posts as if they were real messages in the bottle and threw them in the sea … starting Dear … and I wasn't really sure whom I am addressing them to. But I was trying to have a conversation with someone secretly hiding somewhere ( may be M) and hoped he would find my messages and comes for rescue. but he never come and I quit sending the messages.

Bitter Sweet Memories

A warm breeze, a lovely old scent, a soft enchanting song,
Visions in sepia colors yet so charming and colorful, voices and echoes that tremble the heart, suddenly a surf from the deep comes and splashes the shore.

If we are not meant to see our future in advance, shouldn't we cherish what we have seen. Ironically, it's difficult to handle.

Bad memories are hard but good ones are harder, the sweet memories that become bitter because they have passed, because of the years.

Time leaves its traces and shades just like the ones on the pages of an old book.
The people that we wonder will we ever see again. The photos of the places that still exist yet they are never the same.

These memories are carved deep in the soul, covered with the daily activities, future plans, problems and so many things we indulge ourselves in.
And the moment we decide to sit back and relax a little, they come, black you out, stops the time and attack like a tornado scatters the present like the dust that covers an old book. The carved memories became exposed and aches in an enjoyable way.

Only one thing gives them the lovable taste again the fact that they were once sweet and HOPE.

Valuable Contributions; Due Thanks

About six months ago Norm has left me a valuable comment that I kept thinking of , saved it and considered it one of the most wonderful truthful quotes I have ever known.
Many thanks Norm.

"When one good friend leaves your life another seems to enter and fill the same space...I think we are all one spirit and that the parts of that spirit that you need at any time will find you. "


Youssef also has left me a comment on my post "Quotes" that had wonderful other quotes that I so wanted to thank him for. they are as follows:

"They say that kids tell the truth, but am I a child too when I tell you that I love you enormously ?"

"أشفق و حقد و رغب و عزف و غاب و رجع دون جدوى"

"When I hear somebody sigh 'Life is hard', I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?"

"He can do more for others who has done most with himself".

"I'm a killer, i kill people for money, but you are my friend I KILL YOU FOR FREE !!"

"To look life in the face...always...to look life in the face...and to know it...for what it is...and at last to know it...to love it...for what it is...and then...to put it away".

Lasto-adri *Blue*:

"Accept everything about yourself -- I mean everything, You are you and that is the beginning and the end -- no apologies, no regrets."

"Whatever you fear the most you attract into your life and whatever you expect the most, you also attract into your life as well"


Hechkok:

"when you are content to be simply yourself and don't compare or compete, everybody will respect you"

" Love is like a plant that needs care and tenderness but it dies immidiatly if you forget it"

Jannah:

من وجد الله ماذا فقد؟ ومن فقد الله ماذا وجد؟

Wonderer:

"Common sense is very uncommon""Friendship is like a bank account, you can't continue to draw from it without making deposits"


Thanks dear friends I do appreicate what you share with me.

Bloggers' Iftar

Below is the original post about the nice outing.
I am glad I had the opportunity to be there.

http://www.egyblogs.com/home/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=44&Itemid=2

Quotes

These are quotes Ilike from movies but I couldn't help not commenting on some of them.

"More real to me than anything I've ever known".

"Sometimes feel as if I'm invisible, as if no one can see me at all".
Sometimes it is just what I want….

"How's your sunset?
It's perfect.
I only wish you were here to share it with me".
Hope you were watching the same sunset even if you are far.

"One man I can never meet. Him, I would like to give my whole heart to".
Can't say "never".

"I've been trying to forget you and forgive you".
Forgive you for being so good to be true.

"Let me let you go".

"Over the mysteries of female life there is drawn a veil, best left undisturbed".

"Someday you'll find a man, a good man, and you'll love him, and marry him, and live and die for him".
Where are you …

"I shall be homesick for you even in Heaven".
Hope you will be there "M".

"Your heart understood mine. In the depth of the fragrant night, I listened with ravished soul to your beloved voice. Your heart understood mine".

"At night my mind would come alive with voices and stories as real to me as any in the real world. I gave myself up to it, longing for transformation".

"True or False: All's fair in love and war".

"My heart is, and always will be, yours".
It's FATE

"Neither of us have anything to tell. I because I conceal nothing and you because you communicate nothing".
I concealed and you didn't communicate…

"There is a painful difference between the expectation of an unpleasant event and its final certainty".
There lies a brief space of denial in the middle.

"What's it like not to feel anything?"
Don't feel anything at all.

"You know what it is? … It's my heart, and its broken".

"Beginnings are scary, endings are usually sad, but it's the middle that counts the most".

"And you'll just forget about me, right? … every day".

And when i think of you i fall in love again
A love so beautiful in every way
A love so beautiful we let it slip away (a song).

Another Tag By Engy

So my very dear friend Engy has came up with a very intriguing question:
To name the things that we hate/dislike…, I really want to take this one,
Thanks so much ya Juka.
1- The word "Hate", pessimism and negative thoughts
2- Noise (loud voices, music, horns … anything loud)
3- To be ignored (yes I do love the attention and I am always too shy to ask for it).
4- Waking up early (like you Juka :) )
5- Disappointment and what I dislike more is when I give excuses to those who have disappointed me, the time I spend waiting to hear an explanation (not an apology) and I never get it.
6- To be taken for granted.
7- Intrusive, nosy people.
8- Smoking.
9- To start the conversation on the msn or gtalk. It's not that I don't want to talk but I don't like to initiate the talk.
10- When people do come very close when talking to me, I like to have my space… (it's not appropriate no matter if it's a man or a woman who does that still annoying).
11- Making a big fuss out of nothing, life is simple.
12- Swearing.
13- Showing off
14- To be misjudged or underestimated.
15- Backstabbing (talking badly about a person behind his back).

I am tagging again my sidebar residents :)... if they would like to take it… please try it's fun to do it and interesting to see what you don't like :)

Tag

I wrote a post before ( Detailed one ...Here) about my favorite things so I am sorry to bore you again. but here are top of mind fifteen things as a response to Ha Ana Za 's nice tag. Many thanks Ha Ana Za for tagging me:
Note : they are randomly ordered…
1- Reading Qoran; not just to learn but to feel serenity
2- Family and friends
3- Swimming, walking at night
4- Enjoying the sunset view on the beach
5- Photography
6- Open air, quiet places
7- Boats
8- Yeah coffee too
9- Shopping
10- Spending money (not on trivial things but to make anyone or myself happy, I am not a fan of saving, I am not rich never will be … simple, peaceful life is more enjoyable ).
11- The rain
12- Blogging
13- Cooking
14- Greenery
15- Everything to be clean.

I would like to tag my dear friends in my sidebar if they would like to.