Thursday, October 20, 2005

Wish List!

To me it's a luxury to be asked if I have a wish list, may be I have like one or two on the top of my mind but a list …need some thinking.
Besides, my wishes are so simple to be realized and my experience has taught me that the most wonderful things that have happened to me have never been planned for on the contrary the things that I have hoped for an exert some effort trying to achieve haven't turned out the way I wished.
Here is one little thing that I thought would chill me out and boost my mood as I have been stressed out, my family planned to go to Alex and I planned that the first thing that I will go for is to have a walk on the beach at night.
We went there and I convinced my sister and a friend of mine to join me and enjoy the quietness and serenity and some other stuff that I said but I don't rememberJ
When we got there we found it so dark and scary, four or five dogs came out of no where and luckily we went back home safely.
Back to the wish list, I decided to pamper myself and offer myself the luxury of having a lifetime wish list, it's not an organized or a prioritized one, there are more of random thoughts (some of them are very childish, I must say...)
1- Travel on a boat…
2- I want all the people that I love to love me in return.
3- I want to work as a teacher, it's a noble profession.
4- I want my family to reunite and to have a family gathering with all the family members who are living abroad as I really miss them.
5- I want someone to do a special thing just for me and tell me about it.
6- I want people to act in a more humane way especially at work, and to realize we are human beings not machines.
7- I want people to love, care, help and never hurt each…I am not exaggerating we all want that.
8- I want to live in a healthy and clean environment, have a simple lifestyle not a sophisticated one.
9- I want to perform 3omra.
10- I want to stand up for my rights without feeling bad right after that.
11- Ride a bike…tried a lot and failedJ
I am done with the brainstorming and I think that's all I can recall for the time being.


Wednesday, October 19, 2005

The old friend


That is the old friend that I no longer have, it's an oil painting that I drew eight years ago.


Tuesday, October 18, 2005

The New Friend !

Dear ...
I can recall more than two incidents when I met someone for the first time and not only I thought he looks familiar but also as if I was expecting to see him… it is not that I like him/them it’s more of I thought I have seen him before … like this picture has existed in my mind and it was a matter of time to find out whom will be the person that this picture belongs to…
It's weird isn't it...
Anyways, that also happened to me when I started photography… I am not a professional photographer I am just an amateur and I haven't even got this urge to capture a moment or a view before…on the contrary, I experience a great difficulty going through my photos that were taken during college time, they make me see the friends that I thought I have … where we used to sit and hang out… , I no longer talk to anyone of them. All gone…that’s life anyway.
But it came to my surprise that the tool that can generate all those feelings and sad thoughts can also bring me happiness … one day I took my sister's camera and I began to discover and explore photography and that was how I got acquainted to my new friend.
And as the friends that I used to know were replaced with new ones and I am very grateful for that … the sad thoughts, insecurities and anxieties caused by my fear of losing anyone has been changed.
Sometimes you just need a little thing to change your whole perspective about everything.