Sunday, January 28, 2007

I can't hear me

Silence seems to be a luxury that I can’t afford to have even some of.
I need ear plugs, I have a lot to say but the voices are so loud. Even the ones who care for me don't want to leave me alone just for an hour or two. I need some space.
I normally am a good listener but as long as no one bothers to listen, give me a chance to listen to myself.
I can't count the times that I heard the question "Are you OK" "What is wrong with you" followed by my answer "I am fine" and then get that look as if I am hidding something, well I am not, or may be I am... how can I tell.

posted by Nesrina @ 12:24 AM  

6 Comments:

  • At 3:43 AM, Blogger Ayat said…

    i guess i'm supposed not to comment.. to leave you some space .. but i just wanna say .. that i know thses voice/questions/looks .. they even remain after their owner leaves..
    all i can say is:
    ربنا ينعم عليكى براحة البال

     

  • At 3:52 AM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Me,
    No my dear, I appreciate your comment, I need a space to think but I do also need to be heard and supported.
    Many thanks for your support ya 7abebty.

     

  • At 12:38 PM, Blogger tongue said…

    hello nasrina.
    if you want to 'listen to yourself' then i have a proposition that goes exactly in this direction.please have an ear at this audioblog i started with a friend: http://cairotalkingheads.blogspot.com/

    a kind of art project where we offer to be the voice of somebody else. please tell me what you think of that. greetings, gilles

     

  • At 2:11 AM, Blogger Unknown said…

    ok I will write a small word to leave you with your peace, for me to listen to myself I choose always to saty alone for a while by the sea or in front of a large landscape and it helps.
    hope you feel less crouded soon.

     

  • At 2:22 AM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Hechkok,
    I used to sit alone by the sea around sunset time too but that was in summer when I had the luxury of being in the north coast:) (you know people in Cairo are deprived from wonderwful seascapes).
    You know what ... the peaceful spot I am looking for is just inside me and I just need to find it.

     

  • At 11:41 AM, Blogger ahmad hussameldin said…

    i used to be an extra listener to myself,, many internal dialogues with me
    ,,thatis my nature being abit not sociable..
    when i first joined the university,i was like shocked and lost into the crowd,everybody is talkin so much of everything all the time ,omg, i thought i shall change ,
    tried to imitate and be one of the crowd,couldnot cope with it, but soon i was back to myself .
    may be abit lonely at times but always enjoying areal peace of mind and some meditation actually much meditaion, but im happy with that.
    ahmad

     

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