Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Questions

Since I decided to resign and I have been thinking how things will be after that.
I love stability but I invested like five years in my company, indulged to prove that I am good and I am a hard worker.. till I woke up one day and found myself 28 with less friends and single. My life was home, work and absolutely nothing else.
I was raised by a military man (my father) and a headmistress of a school (my mother), imagine the combination. Used to study on my own, never failed at school or collage, never done anything that I regret. The only outing that we were permitted to was the club. The thing is I never moved on… I remained the disciplined girl that is shy and try the hardest to conceal it to look as if I belong to the work environment.
When I first joined the Marketing department. I used to stay up to 9 and 10pm and return home with a great back pain and red eyes from sitting in front of the computer for long hours, loosing weight as a result of having one meal a day. Looking pale and stressed out. Till I decided to leave on time, turn off my cell phone and have some ME time. Actually this ME times was more of family time but since I wasn't there for them for some time, It was good for me.
From that time and I have revolted against my life style and decided to look for another job that will be less draining. Things got worse after my boss left and it was as if all what I did was in vein. Had to start over with a new boss.
Till I had the opportunity and decided to leave the company and join the bank. I proceeded with telling my boss and HR director, who tried to keep me with some promises that I didn't trust.
Then after the approval of the resignation, I told less than 10 people and the news flew to the others.
Next week will be my last one and I am already sick of these questions that I am being asked from 9 till 5:30 everyday from different people, even the ones who are not close at all :
When will be your last day? "Why are you leaving the company". "And where are you going", "Are you traveling", How good is your other offer" , "Do they pay well", "how did you apply"
Another kind of asking the same questions:
"Are you leaving because of anyone here… (Maintaining an eye contact trying to make me confess? "
"How was your meeting with the HR Director, what did he offer you not to leave"
I am a very open person, have really nothing to hide but asking intensely makes me wonder.
I am scared from the change but excited at the same time. Wish me luck.

22 Comments:

  • At 11:10 AM, Blogger PsychicWizdom said…

    Resign? That's big. But I'm sure you made the right decision, I dunno why I'm saying that, but you look so confident in making this decision.
    I won't wish you luck, cause you don't need that my friend. All you need is the "strength to carry on". If that sounds so dull, then all you need is believing in yourself. Hope things work out well for you. :)

     
  • At 11:24 AM, Blogger Lasto-adri *Blue* said…

    wish you all the luck dear.
    i know those stupid questions of the poky poky people.
    sometimes they get on my nerve :S

    rabna m3aki :)

    Ah, sorry if i didn'tc all today :S, i was out day long, then can't hlep sleeping.. just wake up when it was too late :(

     
  • At 1:30 PM, Blogger Norm Shaw said…

    Nesreen,

    I'm proud that you had the courage to both recognize that you needed to make a change and then to follow-through with. There are far too many people too afraid to do what they need to do to be happy in their lives.

    My best wishes go with you!

    Norm.

     
  • At 9:48 PM, Blogger Emory said…

    I wish you the greatest success, and happiness in your career change.

    I hope you will take some time off before you report to your new employer.

    Good luck and congratulations!

     
  • At 11:38 PM, Blogger Rain said…

    A7'eeran :))) , finally u took the decision , 3o2baly ba2a :)))

    IsA it'll be the most right decision u ever took (F)

     
  • At 12:11 AM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    PW,
    I really need "strength" to carry on... but I do feel different, like I have stepped out of something I thought I was stuck in and I am excited about exploring other options. thanks sooooooo much dear.

    Bella,
    Many thanks, it's ok walahi I do understand ... It ran some errands too and came back home very exhausted. isA will pick another time :)

    Norm,
    I was so scared, still am ... a little :), but I feel better.
    Hope my decision proves to be a right one. appreciate your support, thanks Norm.

    Emory,
    Thanks for your wishes, I am taking a month off, how cool is that :), I wanted to charge my battery, go relaxed and refreshed.

    Rain,
    A7'eeran :), thank god.. 3o2balek.
    Ya rab ya rain yekoon a good decision, will see. ed3eely.

     
  • At 1:16 AM, Blogger emlino said…

    First: I think it is an excellent idea to take some time for your own and to try, may be, organize your life to do not hand off of the things that you consider important in your life... time for YOU, your family, your friends...
    Second: I wish you (and I'm praying for) all the best to this new project that you are investing your life... I'm sure you will succeed very well.. once again :) Remember that all of this is growing up... it will not be perfect, but it is perfect at the same time because it is a needed part of your life way now.
    Third: May be you have less friends but the ones you have may be are better friends... anyway, anytime is the right time to make solid friendships. Single? Single? :) I'm sure, with all of your beauty, it won't be a problem for you when you meet "the one"...
    :)

     
  • At 2:39 AM, Blogger salateenoo said…

    so courage of you ..
    i wish to do the same ..
    but still didnt have enough coutage to do it...
    or didnt find the better opportunity yet ....

    iam with yu that this kind of work is stealing our lives.

    i keep on thinking when i have kids ... they will see me about an hour or two in the day ...just like that ...i will be like a visitor for them .....what kind of life is that...

    i even stopped practising my hobbies... i dont even read that much ....

    yess....its a kind of life robbery ..

    congratulations .. wish u all the luck

     
  • At 10:10 AM, Blogger Engy said…

    Wish you best of luck ya nesreena, although am feeling sooo bad, where will I go when I feel angry or stressed??!!

    I used to go to you, direct to the fridge and get any cold thing and set and talk talk talkkkkkkk.
    Where would I go now??:(((

    The nicest laughing time with Soha, know what I remembered now??..when you get us the recording post card and we recorded us singing and laughing, what was the song??:D

    Was nice time, but I know it's getting bad in our co.

    wish u the best ya gameela, forever friends, ha??:)

     
  • At 1:05 PM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Emlino,
    Thanks so much and you for your wishes and prayer.
    You are right my friends may be less in number but I do really love them and I am very grateful they are part of my life. About "the one" ... hope he exists :)

    Salateeno,
    I used to say I don't have the courage, but trust me when the time comes.. .you will find yourself somehow pushed to a certain direction. weird but it happened to me. Hope when you have kids, they find you nearer than you think, a supportive dad with a bright future isA.Thanks a million.

     
  • At 1:16 PM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Engy,
    I was about to cry ya Juka, can't imagine work without you guys.
    You were always there for me too.
    Yes the laughs, our lunch together ... sneaking out to buys presents, remember the Mont Blanc pen :), our conference calls :D
    Yes singing "Nasya ..Ana fakra we nasya ...". do you still remember how we used to sing it (our remix):D
    Still don't know how we remembered such a song, it was hillarious.
    You are real wonderful friends that I will really do miss the opportuity to see everyday but I will always be there, phone, going out. I am still the same person :)

     
  • At 6:06 PM, Blogger ~Mystery~ said…

    Well, I totally relate Nesrina. I had a job that sucked my whole life. I had no time for myself, my family or to do anything I loved anymore. Had to quit and look for something else. I had a much better job later and even though I worked the same hours I had two days off instead of one and more time for me as I wasn't as stressed. All the best my dear. Keep us posted :) Hey seems you and Engy share a lot :D That part of your memories together really touched me.

     
  • At 7:24 PM, Anonymous Green Data said…

    Good luck Nesrina in your new job. Look, as long as you have a better offer (not only financially for sure) then go for it and do your best there and Allah will be with you inshalla.

     
  • At 2:05 AM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Mystery,
    Thank you dear, your words were encouraging about your new job, hope it always be as you want it.
    About Engy, she and Soha are very dear friends to me, I love them so much and we work at the same company. Engy worked at the marketing dept as well for three months. so that's why we have a lot of memories together. not to mention that she spilled water and fries on my skirt the other day, when we were having lunch with Dalia (hope u r reading this ya Juks :P).

    Tiko,
    Many thanks,It's just, I was kinda attached emotionally to the company, although I wasn't happy. but as u said, we have to be more mature about it and when we find a better thing why not consider it.

     
  • At 2:37 AM, Blogger MoonLightShadow said…

    Nesrina, wish you all the best isA :)
    I've always believed that change is always good. Sometimes we are emotionally attached to a place, but we never know, may be there are better chances waiting for us.

    You know, my mother is a teacher, she has been working at the same school for 18 years. For the past few years she has been considering the idea of leaving, however, she was very attached to the place and her friends there. Finally this year she made the decision.

    For her, it's a total change. I can feel it. As if she is starting a new life after all these years. She is trying to be better. Learn new stuff.

    Stability is good, but change will teach you more.

    Wish you best of luck.

     
  • At 4:10 AM, Blogger Engy said…

    Yes, it was "nasia..ana nasia we fakra", and don't know too how and why we remembereed it and sang it:DD

    And yes sure I remember A's Mont Blanc pen and the long time we spent at the store to choose him one:))

    Sure we will take and meet ya gameela, life is fast and busy but there is always time for real friends:)

     
  • At 5:02 AM, Blogger roora said…

    nesrina, I am happy for you as lately in the lestest posts I felt that you weren't having the gretaest time in your work ..so better change you ahve nothing to loose , i also second moonlight in her words , stability is good but change will make you learn more ISA.

    I wana ask you something about how hectic is marketing ? As currently I am working in a good place elhamdALlah, where I am satisfied but I had a better offer (better title) in the marketing field in a marketing company .. I think it is interesting but again it is something That I never woked in , i studies it only so I am clueless about it ..is it boring or interesting or what ?

     
  • At 7:04 AM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Moon,
    My mother had a similar experience of leaving the school after so many years. I am happy about the change and I believe I am ready for it.
    I am very thankful for your wishes. I am really happy about this overwhelming comment and wishes.

    Juka,
    Yes ya Juka tab3an there is always time for real friends. and who knows ... may be they still have some vacancies ;)

    Rora,
    I am happy with the encouragement I am getting more than anything.
    can never thank you all enough.
    About the marketing, it's amazing and wonderful, you have a lot to learn and experience. however, the work is too much, you are consumed getting the job done and find a way to present it.
    Look pray este7'ara and persue, it's not boring at all but your personal life might be affected, be aware of that and try to focus and be keen on having time for yourself, don't get carried away.
    If you need to know anything further email me. God be with you dear, congrats mokadaman :)

     
  • At 3:05 AM, Blogger safa said…

    salam Neseren, May God helps you in your life.

     
  • At 11:59 PM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Salam Safa, Many thanks dear.
    All the best.

     
  • At 7:28 AM, Blogger layal said…

    Wish u luck
    حصل لي نفس موقفك الفرق اني لم انشر الخبر حتي لا اواجه مثل تلك الاسئله المتكرره
    لكن البنك امورهم متعبه فأستعدي لتواجهي ما اوجهه -ليس ذلك الامر لاخافتك
    لكني شعرت بتشبعي من عملي السابق وحاولت التغيير وهذا ما حدث -لك مهما عملنا تبقي الحياة هي الحياة
    تعب هي الحياة
    تحياتي -وبالتوفيق ان شاء الله

     
  • At 1:55 AM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Hey Layal
    أنا لم أنشر الخبر، كان على اخبار مديرى و زملائى فى القسم و الخبر انتشر من تلقاء نفسه :)
    دعواتك يا ليال، كل عمل له صعوباته و لكن كما قلتى هذه هى الحياة.
    ربنا يوفقك و يعيننا على التغيير.

     

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