Friday, May 05, 2006

Clarification

Dear friends,
When I first started blogging more than a year ago, I so wanted to be me, say what I want to say, open up and express myself. I didn't fear judgment or any opposing opinion or even mockery.
I remained for a considerable while anonymous although I didn't hide anything not even my name. On the contrary I used to write my full name J
For a reason I didn't expect anyone to read and for me the comment feature was just part of the template till I started getting comments form Norm and Mr. Ben Zab. They showed me that they read and respect what I write which was so encouraging, I really appreciated that.
The first posts that I was talking to myself, I was under the impression that I was a person who talks to herself in the street that if someone will pass by will never pay attention. But instead I started to see some people around me just to listen to what I am saying.
Started to have comments from all of you wonderful friends. Started to notice the name of my blog in your sidebars. Started to visit your blogs and exchange my views with you.
For more than a year I have NEVER EVER received any abusive or offensive comment from anyone. They were all very supportive and considerate and I am really grateful and thankful for all of you. I became addicted to your blogs as well and felt closer to you.
But I am afraid to be addicted to your comments as well and I don't want to burden you with my anxiously to have a response.
What I would like to do is to deactivate the comments, but still I will be very happy to receive your feedback through emails if you felt like it.
My friends, please don't get me wrong, your comments meant so much to me. but I decided to decrease my expectations about nearly everything to zero level. (will write a post about it later to explain).
I will add your blogs url to my sidebar to let you see how I am crazy about your blogs and the number of times I visit them. And of course will keep commenting.
So dear all keep reading please and keep feeding me back if you would like, I am very lucky to be heard by you.

14 Comments:

  • At 8:52 AM, Blogger ayman_elgendy said…

    :-))

     
  • At 12:22 PM, Blogger Me said…

    First of all sweetie... I'm addicted to your blog too... I may have disappeared from the blogosphere lately but I've been reading your blogs... was just going through "mute mode" or something...

    I read your "Great Expectations" post but I still don't understand why you've disabled the comments...is it like you expect more of us to comment and then we don't so you get disappointed?
    Anyway ya gameela ... it's your blog and feel free to do whatever makes you feel comfy :) We'll still be around reading...

    "I wonder if I have zero expectations how life would look like. Well, it has its pros and cons, but there will surely be a lot of surprises"

    I think even when we have expectations... life is still full of surprises... coz not everything we expect happens !!

     
  • At 12:29 PM, Blogger MoonLightShadow said…

    Despite the fact that I respect your decision, for, it's your blog.. and you are free to adjust it the way you feel.. however I'm sad you are gonna do this :( that's not an attempt to change your opinion, however, I feel I'm gonna be deprived from sharing with you.

    I second Me, not everything we expect happens.

     
  • At 3:02 PM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Me,
    My post great expectations has nothing to do with blogging. and I really didn't expect anything when I first started writing that's what I said.
    I am not happy at work, having some problems and I am losing my patience. thank god there is nothing serious. but I am lately very anxious and a bit nervous and I don't know why, I am not like that. so I am just keeping a low profile or may be I am giving myself less things to think of... don't really know.

    Moon,
    There is no way on earth that I could deprive you of sharing ... you know there was some posts that I actually wrote and didn't publish because I thought... no it might be gloomy, or no it's too shallow, or what would they say today I am happy and tomorrow I am posting something sad as if I am crazy. it's like when I am not feeling well and I hide in my room fearing that my mom would worry about me or ask what is wrong with you and I don't have an answer.
    It's a temporary thing I promise.

    Girls you were always supportive and I can never ever expect more, but I do need support at other areas (work, personal life) and don't have the luxury of asking for. so I am relying on god and decided to expect nothing. Hope you understand me and I am so grateful and thankful for your extremely sweet comments.

     
  • At 4:19 AM, Blogger Rain said…

    My Dearest Neri,
    I totally understand you , I feel you very well , I know exactly what you mean (F).

    I just hope it's just a phase , wish you always be happy , May God help you find your way and guide you with his light .

     
  • At 4:41 AM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Thanks Rain, please pray for me.
    I was worried about you dear.
    Hope you are feeling better sweetie.
    I hope that it's just a phase too, I discovered that locking myself up is not helping nor does ignoring the original problem and starting to look for anything else to take an action ... just to feel that I can do anything. trying to be impulsive. it's just not me.

     
  • At 6:02 AM, Blogger Rain said…

    Thanks Neri for your concern...well i'm starting to be better and come to normal but apparently i had other issues that were hidden and only this incident unleashed them :S

     
  • At 12:16 PM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    I am sorry Rain, hope things get better.

     
  • At 10:35 PM, Blogger a h m a d said…

    Hi Nesrina,
    If it makes you feel better to disable the comments, then go ahead, do it! I try to understand how that can make you feel better and I read that you want to have "zero expectations."

    This would lead me to remember how I look at things, I always expect the worst and I am a strict believer of Murphy's Law ("If something can go wrong it will") yet when I read a previous post of yours, Whatever We Are Waiting For; it made me think and discover myself better and see how you are different than me and how I should learn from your positive attitude and learn to expect good things.

    I used to blog much less, as infrequent as bimonthly. There were times when I am in a very bad mood and then I would think of deleting my blog, as if that can make me feel better!! Then I decide not to.

    Nesrina, do not expect any comments, just write to enjoy writing. I don't want to make this any longer and you don't have to reply to my comment. ;)

     
  • At 1:28 AM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    No Ahmad, I would really love to reply:
    First I am so glad that u thought about a post that I wrote.
    Secondly, I was wrong I have to admit, but the only way to know if u r right or wrong is to try.
    Yes I write to myself and I know who reads so the comments are only meant to be used if there is something has to be said if not...ok it's no problem. that's not why I deactivated them.

     
  • At 2:14 AM, Blogger Wonderer said…

    I guess is the idea of a blog is sharing one's thoughts. So commenting is a very important factor here, or else a pencil and a piece of paper will be easier, right?
    Anyway, it is your blog, do what you feel like. But be sure that I am one of the people out there who really enjoy your posts:)

     
  • At 2:29 AM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Wonderer, u r very right and I couldn't do it aslan. I love your blog too ... u know that.
    Thanks sweetie for the support.

     
  • At 6:26 AM, Blogger Norm Shaw said…

    Nesreen,

    I started my blog with much the same expectation as you, but found that I really appreciate your response to my thoughts and to what I find in your work...

    Obviously, I will continue to read and will give you my feedback by email. Still, I will miss the immediate feeling of responding to your words as I read them.

    Just keep writing and I will keep looking for your thoughts and experiences...and thank you for sharing these with me!

    Norm.

     
  • At 11:51 PM, Blogger Nesrina said…

    Norm,
    Many thanks for your kind words, I won't deactivate the comments, won't deprive myself of the immediate feedback that is always valuable, it's a pleasure that you are still reading my thoughts and more pleasure that you write in your blog.

     

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