"One does not discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time" Andre Gide
I have always tried to be brave and forced myself to discover and explore new lands.
I knew there is a risk but I didn't want anything to hinder this exploration process or journey. but what I discovered after my ship has already sailed is that I may have the will but I don't have the strength, I have been away from the shore for quite some time and I am tired of being lost. From day one in this journey I didn't know where I am heading I wasn't leading, I completely surrendered to the winds.
I love the sea but it's the land where I belong even the will that I thought I have was generated from outside factors, I must say it wasn't a will … I was pushed.
I am sure that things happen for a reason and I know it's going to be for the best..I hope.
I always find it hard to ask for help, I expect help when I think it's pretty noticeable that I have a problem and wait to be saved without asking , do we wait for someone drowning to ask for help or we just do it because it's obvious … that's what I expect.
There's only god who I can ask very proudly and I know that I will be saved.